day ten

So. I'm on day ten of not smoking. According to Quitnet.com I've saved a day and a half of my life as well as $60... which I guess is worth it. What I really <3 about not smoking is 1. not coughing up nasty crap all the time, 2. all my clothes dont smell like stale smoke, and 3. my car stays super clean when I detail it.

There are some cons of not smoking though... or really just the one: complete emotional instability. It's getting better, but still... I never know when I'm going to change my mood. I feel like I'm in the grips of some manic episode sometimes, but then just remind myself 'its the whole not smoking thing'... Having to constantly disregard any feeling that has a twinge of negativity for the past ten days has been frustrating. I feel invalid sometimes, and it makes me want to punch somebody.

But it is getting better. Last night my sister, her boyfriend, a friend and I watched the Pro-Bowl all smooshed up on the couch together as we commented on eachother's facebook statuses and giggled at the dainty way the pros were playing. They didnt even tackle. Or blitz. Or seemingly even try sometimes. But it was fun, and we laughed a lot, and made horribly immature poop jokes, and I laughed like I haven't in ten days. And I really like to laugh so I appreciated it.

I got an email about free nicotine gum but then put the wrong email in when I signed up so it cancelled out my free offer. boo. boo to that! My email got hacked a few weeks ago, so while I still check the old one I use a new one. Oh well. I'll stick to my generic mint coated nicotine gum, I don't need the fancy white ice mint, although my friend Suzanne swears by it.

Work keeps me busy. And friends. And dancing. I've decided to blog about the whole quitting smoking process, and hopefully it will help me (and maybe someone else??) ... But I make resolutions to blog constantly and then miss a few months. "This time it will be different" is a phrase I too often use... So while I'll think it I won't promise anything. Because I really don't need another thing to beat myself up about.

I'm off to grab a coffee and meet up with some ladies. Ciao for now, interweb.