The Whole of February

I didn't smoke for the entire month of February. Albeit the shortest month of the year, this is still an accomplishment. According to Quitnet.com, it has been 38 days, 13 hours, 35 minutes and 21 seconds since my last cigarette. I have saved 5 days and 21 hours of my life, as well as $190.00, and not smoked 771 cigarettes. But that's probably more like 772, since i would undoubtedly be smoking right now if I were still a nasty smoker. You know where that $190.00 I 'saved' by not smoking went? My new Michael Kors watch. But whatevs I totally deserve it... it's my present to myself for not smoking and for just being awesome in general. And for my giant strides in acquiring genuine humility, apparently. On the 44th day of not smoking, which will be next Sunday or Monday, I will get myself another present. Perhaps a meal. Or a new pair of shoes... some shoes to fill that new-summer-line-of-sandals-by-Steve-Madden sized hole in my heart.

I have been wanting to smoke lately. More than I did when I first started. But I haven't, and I won't, because I don't ever want to do this again. And I am so self-righteous and afraid to be proven wrong by anyone that I avoid it like the plague. Maybe worse than the plague, since I don't actually have to actively avoid that. Yay antibiotics! I am down to one or two pieces of nicotine gum a day, not even consciously. I just don't really want that much. But I want one right now as I type this. Plus I just chew the crap out of it, then get heartburn and sandpaper mouth really bad. Yuck-O! But it's better than ashtray breath, I guess.

I am really bored at work. I guess most people have boring jobs that they aren't insanely crazy about going to. But I just think it should be different for me. I am taking steps in that direction I suppose, but it's not here yet... and I still have to come to my boring job and look at a very big and empty blank room and call people who don't answer the phone and spend every last ounce of energy I have just keeping my eyes open. At least I have a job, right?! My little sister Susan is coming to visit this weekend, and that is the bright and shining happy fluorescent light at the end of the tunnel that will get me through this dreary week of monotony. I am excited to see her. We are gonna chill so hard it's gonna feel like an ice age hit Tampa. YAY!!! Well, I should get back to work... call some people, leave some voice mails, send some emails, and watch a little bit more of my life slip away... :) Not that I'm being dramatic or anything. Also, check out this song: "Personality Candyspots" by Marmoset... it's really good. I'd never heard of them before. But this song came on my Pandora station and I can't get it out of my head, but in a good way. Not like that stupid song by Miley Cyrus about Jay-Z and American parties. You know, America was not partying when we lost the Gold medal hockey game. Take that Miley Cyrus. Okay interweb, I'll talk to you soon. LUV